10th September 2025

I've never felt a song so relatable until now. Every single lyrics on point. If you were to ask me what I lost the most this year, I would say my pride. 

多希望我還是個孩子

一哭了就有人給糖吃

不用偽裝什麼 情緒不用控制

不像現在我滿腹心事

被生活磨平我的性子

硬生生拔掉一身的刺

為了油鹽情愁 快熬成了瘋子

在深夜才敢哭的放肆

我也想找回我的稜角 找回我的驕傲

現實卻讓我學會彎腰

明明我曾經那麼快樂 性格那麼倔強

現在卻要向生活討好

我也想找回我的稜角 找回我的驕傲

如今臉上卻只剩苦笑

不知道什麼時候開始 活得不再真實

明明心都快碎了還要說我還好

9th September 2025

It's a very nice day to fail the bto... Honestly, this thought had never crossed my mind before but right now i just had to. I took a first look and I really love Alexandra Peaks or you can even say love at first sight out of all the available options. Waited 2 months for the results but got a very pathetic queue number of 1200+/690 today=.= Not suprised, but definitely disappointed. When you tried to take a step out but if hurdles after hurdles keep coming your way can you still say you are fine? They say when one door closes, a window opens. But it never seems to happen for me. Could you at least leave me a hole to breathe through? Please. 

5th September 2025

Went for a trip to Chongqing because I felt so confused in life, but in the end I came back feeling more confused than ever. This cyberpunk city is really beautiful at night. I watched people come and go then suddenly I realised how big this world is and there are so many possibilities in life.

19th August 2025

 

一個人走了那麽那麽久的路

若有人問我 累不累我真的會哭

這一路的艱難說不出 幸福抓不住

再苦也只有自己清楚

18th August 2025

Everybody is equally selfish in this world, including myself. People always want the best for themselves and only think from their own point of view.  Just because majority win so I should sacrifice myself to make others happy. How is that not selfish on their end? They don’t seem to know how much it hurts. What do they want me to do if I really can’t do it? I really tried but it’s so hard. I feel as if I fell down a bottomless pit, always falling without stopping and always screaming without anyone hearing. I am just trying to save myself how is it so wrong? My feelings are constantly being dismissed. I honestly don’t know if I will ever get to see light at the end of the tunnel or make it there. I feel very exhausted fighting with myself everyday and I can feel it getting out of control. My sanity won’t last long at this rate.

17th August 2025

我已经千疮百孔
你依然无动于衷
就这样任我被回忆捉弄
怪我太情有独钟
你才会有恃无恐
爱不能只靠感动
爱上你 算我失控
情不由衷 陷入牢笼
可怜我 一腔英勇
对你奉送 不得善终
多嘲讽 就像霓虹
爱上夜空 无法相拥
再用力卖弄
都不过是一场无用功

17th August 2025

 从不怀疑真心 但真心瞬息万变